I don’t know if I made this post before, but I’ll find out soon enough. Lately, I’ve been in a bit of a slump. Used to be my work got some semblance of attention, but has dropped significantly. It’s been disheartening lately and it’s been hurting so much to where it feels like I’m dying. But, then I remembered that I loved doing what I do. And while the pain is still there, it’s been significantly dulled. So, what keeps you going in your work?

To me, the idea of doing cool things (not to confuse cool with quality). For same reason, the idea of doing cooler things everytime. Many series from NG began having shit quality yet were cool, and with time, they only became better. I like to think my work has a similar path: is shit but is cool, and with time, it will only get cooler

Just loving making art. I don't really know to be honest because its in my bones. Art is just such a vital part of me. Its how I communicate and bond with people.

I like to think my work will do the same.

There's also the premise of new collabs to host/join.

Aside from that I'm sort of a semi-functioning art machine.

Drugs. Massive, mind rending, ego dissolving extra dimensional gateway opening quantities of drugs.

When I forget that art is meant to be fun, I draw tied up anime titties on weed and shrooms. I realize that everything is going to be okay. The spirit of the Gaian super consciousness lulls my deranged narcissistic ego to slumber and for a time, all I know, all I care about, all I can think about, are tied up tits. There is no desire to die, no screaming pain in the depths of my soul, no fear, no doubt, no disappointment, no discouragement, no self-hatred, no desperate longing for some existential salvation. Just tied up tits. A sea of tied up tits, a fractal of tied up tits. In the end, everything is just tied up tits.

Coffee.

This one got a chuckle outta me. So blunt and so honest, I love it.

We all gotta start somewhere.

As a hobby. Just a hobby… I think I’ll go mad if don’t do something in free time. Programming is NOT a rest. Draw IS. The main reason I think…

Pure spite

I used to do that too. But I eventually realized that takes a lot out of me. Doing it out of love saves a lot more energy. But, hey, that’s just how I think.

Really, just wanting to draw my favorite characters. That's pretty much all it is lol

Drawing is just a very fun and (mostly) relaxing activity for me. It exercises my brain and makes me feel like I've really accomplished something, even if I only work on an artwork for a small bit. Any progress is good progress.

And trust me, I was not trolling either! I could write full 8000 letter novel here explaining about it, but...

*sips* Mmmmm......

Since I started the new webcomic, honestly it's been my anger towards the world and everyone around me that keeps me going. Probably not a great sign, I might not be able to draw like I have been recently if something renews my faith/optimism and it could quickly become unhealthy (if it isn't already), but until then I think I've found a never ending source of motivation. At least until I burn out.